-ing?

 What am I doing?

What am I saying?

Am I just blabbering?

That’s more than 3 I’s am such a selfish being!

I don’t wanna quit talking

Nor do I want to start smoking

But id start drinking

If I had the right funding

And I wanna go diving

Up from the terrace to the bottom of the flooring…

Or should I try hanging from the ceiling..

What if it comes crashing down?

Thud! That would be so embarrassing

No point grieving

Let linkin start playing

Then may be I’ll start healing

I don’t wanna be fantasizing

Its ceasing, the weeping

Rain drops are dancing

I am walking

Over to the  clearing

The path is winding

Let it keep playing..

A Walk To Remember

Life is a real long walk to remember, at any point of time. It is a marathon, a never ending race. It’s been a great walk? I know not, but the walk continues. It hasn’t been a lonely saunter, I have been ushered by people sometimes, and at times even if they were there I could never realize their presence. People come and go out of your life like a breeze and at times like a tornado. I wonder why they must go, why did they leave me? I grow sad it hurts, but guess I cope with it soon for everything happens for a reason. And I wonder why some people are there, why can’t they just leave? Weird thoughts! But whatever happens never lose hope never stop trusting yourself, cause, when you do, you land in a big quandary. You start treading a slippery path. You stop being yourself, start doing things you never did. You never know how many times you may fall and it’s a long journey to reach that normal path. And once you’ve got back on the right track never look back, and never ever regret, give it your best shot and move forward! Go for it! You need not triple your speed but do it the right way the way you want it! The finish line is far away.

just deck the halls with boughs of holly!

Now this is very annoyinnnnng…aargh..i badly want to write something but just don’t know what to….I do have a lot of stuff going through my mind right now…but the keyboard just refuses to accept them….or is it cos the font color in word is white:D…oh crap…I ve gone insane…oh ..well whatever..I ve this strong urge to punch a lot of people down and beat them up.I feel like going to the beach….lie down and gaze at the countless constellations in the sky nd watch the tides dancing….today was a very bad day actually…sree-my best friend and mentor-its been over 1.5 years since we met..though me and megs paid her a surprise visit on her birthday (October 5th)..and ate those pasteries..and the ice cream…checked our bp&weight..checked out the anatomy text book…gross it was…but had some fun checking out I guess…oh yea she is a medical student..future doc….anyways we dint have ample time to sit down and talk really.. so well…so we sort of planned .And she said she’ll most probably come today….and she rang me up today morning and said she wont be coming today…so yea I was in deep melancholy.. …have sorta faced a lotta “theyppe” a.k.a betrayal recently..so I just sorta wanted to vent my emotions…which I could really do with her around..and on top of it all, I miss her a lot….so that’s about THE doc….talking to megs in the evening cheered me up a bit though..tried to study computer organization well data paths looked longer than nh-47..so dint succeed….talking about NH-47..i feel like going for a long drive…innova will be ok..with a good music player….I hope to have atleast a dream with all these…dreeeaaaams come trueeee…dreaaaams come true.....isnt it a westlife song…afcos it is..soumya used to hate it….well its time to sing "deck the halls with boughs of holly"...Christmas is coming up…hope star movies has some good flicks in store….and afcos new year…this year too..Kerala University does a big favour by welcoming it with the exams….anyways..unlike 2k7 which was a disastrous start...hoping to have a rocking 2008…,,,,,so whatever be the mood just deck it all with boughs of holly
MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR
to one and all.-in advance

what should the title be???

ok so finallly i decide to update ma blog..due to some reason or the other i had to change the link..hope my fans find it out..or please pass the link on:D:D...

1. Pick out a scar you have, and explain how you got it.

Got one on my forehead,its hidden by my eyebrows.... tried to ride a bicycle when I was 5years old…I repeat it’s a bicycle not a tricycle..hehe..mom was in the kitchen and I got on it by climbing onto the window:D..and….obviously...wasnt successful:D:D..and so fell off..and a slight injury on ma forehead,,so the scar!!!

2. What does your phone look like?

Its black …it’s a flip open..got some scratches on it..other than its pretty small and kewl

3. What is on the walls of your bedroom?

GSLV-D2’s poster…sri vital sri rukmini poster..Kian’s pic..

4. What is your current desktop picture?

It’s a poem that I copy pasted in paint .
."...But I have promises to keep
And miles to go before i sleep
And miles to go before i sleep"

5. Do you believe in gay marriage?

ITS upto them.

6. What do you want more than anything right now?

My mobile ( shal has confiscated it...cos ive been OVER tempted:D right shal???:P)

7 . What time were you born?

12:05 pm....(9th of April)

8 . Last person who made you cry?

J

9. What is your favourite perfume / cologne?

Impulse

10. What kind of hair/eye color do you like in the opposite sex?

Black/black

11. What are you listening to?

The best of me by Bryan Adams

12. Do you get scared of the dark?

Yea may be if its an unfamiliar place

13. Do you like painkillers?

No special liking!!,,sometimes u just cant do widout them

14. Are you too shy to ask someone out?

Lol nope..not if I badly wanna go wid him:p

15. If you could eat anything right now, what would it be?

crackle..bounty,,,and all sorta chocolates

16. Who was the last person who made you mad?

sHaL[ dodo..:p,,,ya know the reason]

17. Who was the last person who made you smile?

Bryan Adams…without HIS voice without HIS songs…life wouldnt hve been so kewl..:P

p:s..thanks Hari..for making me finally update it:p..and for the tag!

intro part 2

we entered our 11th grade...sree took up bio/maths..shreya...maths/mal..megha ,rhea,soumya,lek and i took up..maths/computer..so we ended up in the same class...;)...we became a gng..had lotta fun....we had really kewl teachers and..really...u knw..trs as well...all of us had joined in fr various tuitions..had 2 for maths..one fr de big dreade entrance..nd the other fr our boards pt of view..then fr..phy n chem.....that was when rhea strted talking more to 'a fat potato'..a guy who ws there @de tuitions....nd i really felt dat he was an a$$####..nd so did our other pals..anwys..so i did tell her to watchout..then..dayz moved on n she strtd gettng annoyed wid me fr no reason..nd we strtd fighting..nd she almost stopped talking to me,,,like pretend tht i neva existed..i was really sad..about de whole stuff..i mean 10yearlong frndship??!!..and all of a sudden....we fall apart..hmm...soumya helped a lot to getover it..(thankss a lot!!edo!)...hmm...yea..our computer classes were really nice..cos..we had it in de lab..nd de teacher who taught us cpp..ws a really kewl one..she was infact a real gud friend of us..(she is still..)..she always thought frm our pt of view..:)..which nt many trs do....she gave us a lottafreetime..:)...then..yea...me n megz..were not at all in chemistry wid chemistry../:D..hehe..de organic part!!!..whole lotta crap itwas..even de marks:D....hm....then..@tuitions...hilarious!!...especially de notes..."electrons moving to kottayam"-(meg;))...u cld imagine..our condition our a dayfull of boring lectures at skewll..off to another place..two hhours of chemistryy???..!!!...time fr a nice slumber:D..!!!...but the time between gettng to de tuit after leavng skewl..was real funn...de bell goes..and off we run..maan..p.t.usha thottu pokum:D..and we stop in front of vishak..uhhh...mann...such a great bakery...aaa..delicious..yummyyy.."oru drinks, parippuvada{aa ma fav:P},oru veg cutlet"..aaa gobble it up..hehe.."paavada praythill//..."...comes de voice frm de radio there...and we look at eachother shocked..n there we go laughinn...u knw we laughed n laughed..even fr de smallest of things....yea..finsh de snacks....n @ de counter...."oru centreshock,2 gems(2rs):D"....centreshock n gems..really helped in atleast keeping our eyes open at sumpt @ de classes:D..pinne..yes...roadside...its a competition out dere..to catch an auto...ppl running in diff directions..to reach de tuit ..heh..sumhw we mange to get hol of one..all of us packed in..and then..yea..drone drone..ketones...aldehydes..aciiii...zzzzz.."ouch!!!enthuva?".."teacher nokkunu.."..hehe..nice sweet grin..as de tr stares:D..tht was one of de gals trying to wake us up..:D..hehe..oki..so time fr sum centreshock..chew..chew..and again...huh!!..:D...but de gud things abt de tests conducted were..u had choice:D..atleast u wldnt have to waste time finding one..:P...a,b,c,d...hmm??..strts de whispering..abt de probabality of a/b/c/d being an answerD:..finally..after marking evrythg..yea..i hve gt a a a a..then b then a..the answer sheet looks gud mite get sum marks today..:D..tht wld be de attitude..maths tuit..we had at jd's plce..maan..he was fond of all of us..i gues...each of us managed to get gud punches,n pinches frm him..:D:d..nd we did get promoted to de first n second benches...:D:d..jd rites the quests on de board nd leaves de room....then..we try to finish it of fast..at times:D..then...busy talking talking/fighting..everythg:d...nd..yea i was fond of de palaghat'e macchanekke song frm maymaadham..:D..so usd to sing it every time..we do the probs..and soumya..turns and asks me to shutup..suddenly sir sees her....he runs to our side..seriouslyy..maan..he rushed..soumya'ke adi'yude pooram thudangi..me n megha strtd laughing..:D..shit the next moment...soumya>>"sir..mac palaghat'e machanikku padunnu"...:o..i look at megz..like dat ws my last moment..wid no hopes....next moment jd's hands go high up in de air aiming...i defend myself wid de book..hehe none manage to escape his hand..phew..got2 blows on ma head i guess..:D..and he teased me de coming days..saying "palghate machan"...hehe..guess what i told himm its a nice song nd askd him to listen to it..:d..got a gud feedbk as well:P:d..hm...soumya and rhea..they always managed a lotta pinches..a lil more than me i guess..:P..megz...stupid..dint get much....though i got her one..fr her kokola mAthi talk..:))..hehe..sir called her//.."mukkuva janmam"..:D..{sorry megz cnt help sayin it..bt i really enjoyd dat moment:p:D}....it was great at jd's plce..:)...we used to have earlymorning classes..so went to skewl directly frm there...aaa..those beautiful rainy days..maaan..we used to luuuvvv gettng drenched in dat dwnpour..megz n i preferred nt to use de umbrellas..while rhea n soumya managed under one....still laughing..and shouting at each other..talking loud..to beat tht drizzlin noiseee..cursin de vssc bus fr splashin de water...then running into the class rooms..dancingg under the fan trying to dry ourselves....the mornings we spent in the classrooms were amazign..we usd to reach very early..due to de tuitions..:)..allof us spend more hours at skewl nd tuitions rather than at home//..:D..seriouslyy...hehe....i feel i wld hve regreted a lott if otherwise.....what cn be betta than sum amazing time wid ur closest pals....:):)...then..de afternoon sessions in skewll..the seven of us got tog during de lunch hrs in our class..sree n shreya..were in de other section rite..soo...we were known as the loudest grp around..i misss those lunch sessions..when we used to make fun of stella and soumya...rhea n de jerk..;)..hehe...de antaksharis....throwing de bottle...splashing water on soumya....and afcos de very memorable prayer session...:D:D..it was sung by one of de sister's at skewl...:))..prayer time..bcame commedy time!....:))..maan..we enjoyd such a hell lott at de angels..dat..i usd to hate de weeknds..i usd to await monday..so dat i cn be bk skewl wid ma buddies..:P...then..yea afcos..de two memorable trips....

an intro

9th of april,1987..yea thats when i was brought to this world...tht means i wld complete 20 years this april..20years and what have i learnt?..my experiences??..i dunno...,.may be a quick tour thru da past wld be good...only daughter to my parents...i was daddy's gal...i still remember hw we used to tease mom..n she usd to get furious at us ...but at the same time enjoy it...:)..he ws da one who taught me hw to hold my cricket bat..he helped me to write my letters..i still remember de very good i got..(as a kid it was a real big thing to me..)..then time passed by..3years or 4 years tht i had wid him...then i knw not wht went wrong..one sunday...as usual mom was gonna make a visit to her house..i was such a crap kid..i made a big fuzz sayin i wnted to go wid her as well..mom was askin me to stay bk wid dad..dint knw y(@ tht point)..bt later on i realised..hd i nt gone i wldnt hve lost de person i love da most,admire da most...in my life.. hmm..time moved on..dad's mother moved in wid us..continued wid ma skooling..mom got a job..things went on smoothly..then...dads sis left calicut nd settled in tvm..so we moved in wid them..it was nice..it was real fun wid my cousins around....they bullied me a lottt..bt nw when i think abt it those were real gud times...mann..i was real horrible wid ma maths ..they nicknamed me zero ramanujan..hehe..bt tht was a gud turning point...i started working on my math..nd ended up as a pythagoras2..;) frm zero ramanujan..:D..hmm....rhea was my neighbour and classmate....hehe it was funny hw she became ma cmate...our first day in second standard..rhea was in the state board till then..she decided to join de isc board,,,...and hehe..she was put in the A division..she was horrified and cried the hell out to make it to ma class..frm then on shez one of ma bez buddies and more of a sister to me.. at skool..i was more like a 'gunda':d..to other kids..found my best friend-sree- in my 6th grade...she still laughs abt dat day when i went nd asked her whther she wld be my friend..it seems i acted as if am proposing sum1:D..:))....9th std..the happiest moment in that year was winning de throw ball competition...i was a member of de blue house team..until i passed out blue ruled!:p....then 10th was full of studies and everythg....moreover all of us were shuffled into diff classes//..but hd to go to rheas class..fr malayalam..:)..tht ws when i strtd talking more to soumya's gang...soumya,megz,mithu,shreya..they were a real funny bunch...especially shreya...hehe..hmm..so each of us had a character from mahabharatha...to make the class interesting...bharathaparyadanam classes were the ones we looked fwd to de most...then..we finished wid da board exams..was hell shocked..to get an 85.8%..hehe rhea nd i got da same marks..:)..evryone was like oh maan true friends..bla...bla..bla...guess...after that,,,,had a hell of a time wid her..seriously...